Bad Attitude

So I know that I am currently having a bad attitude, I am sitting in a meeting room waiting for my stupid Not-for profit organization meeting to start. I am so bitter about this stupid organization because I really feel that I have had NO support from the people involved in it and I really am forced to learn this alone. I have two other people who are part of this stupid board and I am writing on this blog instead of conversing because I am so bitter. I know bad attitude. But I can't learn by being thrown into a "job" and be expected to learn it and do it well. I took over this position half way through the year last year because one stupid bitch got married and took off to Europe and never came back. So I was asked to take over with NO guidance and now people are asking me a bunch of questions, "When does this need to be paid?" "Can you transfer money," and they don't know how fucking much needs to be transfered. GRRRRRRR!!!!!!!! Another thing that irritates me is that they asked me to prep a yearly budget for the organization.... I DON'T KNOW WHERE TO FIND THE INFORMATION!!!! Yet they expect me to prep this stupid budget without any information or the means of trying to figure it out... So I get to approach the board and tell them that I didn't do my job.

Through all of this I have learned something about myself. I hate participating in an organization and be expected to basically do a part time job for free. To me my time is valuable and for me to be wasting my time on this bullshit makes me really have a bad taste in my mouth. So, here I sit venting to all of you.. Yes you are all right, I could resign, but I would really screw everyone in this stupid organization and it also means I could never put this on a resume and this would REALLY REALLY REALLY look fantastic on a resume!! I mean how would I explain myself in an interview when they ask "so why did you only do one year of this organization?" and I would have to lie or think of something ingenious because I can't say "well the people in the organization really left me stranded and I felt as though I was trying to wing this job and I got frustrated and left" anyone in the library world wouldn't hire me. I mean they want an employee who can deal with difficult situations and can work through something not quit. Oh well, such is life right???