Worried

So my brain is over working again. (I talk about my husband a lot, honestly it's so pathetic) but I always get worried when he goes out to Waterton. It's not because I don't trust him, but I am really scared that he will meet some girl out there and she will be "different" too. If you don't know what I am talking about please read the beginning of my blog and it's all explained there, it's to painful to have to explain it over again. Maybe it's a bit of insecurities that I feel this way, or maybe it's just plain fearful that I will never be good enough. I mean I know I am nothing special, other than I do love him more than anything in this world and I would really go to any lengths to keep him happy. Maybe that's my problem, I love him to much??? To overbearing??? Maybe one isn't enough??? I am probably over reacting as I usually do because all the girls out there are about 20 yrs old and yes he has seen some naked girls because they are sluts I guess and think that it's okay to walk around a dorm with no clothing. I just don't know what to do, I mean I know he isn't a cheater but I just get scared and for whatever reason today is the worse. I feel like I am going to vomit. Maybe it has something to do with his facebook status " I'd rather you hate for who I am; than love me for something that I'm not." So the first thing that popped into my head was "What happened for you to post this?" was it in relation to someone hitting on you and you having to turn them away (but this has happened before so I don't know why this time would merit a facebook status", or you know it could be just a saying. A simple saying..... I think I am overthinking things a little bit as I am infamous for. *sigh* I am regretting writing this because it sounds so stupid and childish and it is full of uncertainty. I really need to grow up and realize that he married ME not anyone else, he married ME and that has to mean something......