Travel and Random Thoughts

Hello Readers,

I'm sorry I have deserted you! I tend not to blog on my weekends off because traditionally I am so happy to not be working that I don't have much to bitch about! YAY ME!!! So what did I do on my four day weekend you ask? Well let me tell you!!! We went spontaneously up to the big city on Friday to save a friend from boredom because her significant other was stuck working all weekend so we played games, visited and went shopping on Saturday. Saturday evening I saw an good friend for his birthday because he lives in Red Deer now so I get every chance I can to see him now! Then the Sunday and Monday we cleaned the hell out of our house! I of course had dinner with my family as it was Easter Sunday but then continued on to spring clean my house. My house feels so amazing right now!!! Long may it last!!!

So I have been feeling a little under the weather for the past couple of hours in regards to my finacial status. I feel like I should be traveling more, more money put away, just generally doing better. I realize that I am only in my mid twenties but people my age are going to Vegas or Greece or something. I am looking around me and I am trying to figure out how the hell they can afford this! Are they racking up their credit cards? Are they using credit? Are they just hoarding their money? HOW>! It's freaking irritating as all hell when you are trying to save up money but everyone is going on trips and you are trying to scrounge and make sure that you can eat! I have a deep desire to travel and experience things! I guess I am experiencing fear that I won't see the world, I wanna go to Paris, I wanna go to the UK, I wanna go to Greece, I wanna see where my grandparents raised my aunts and uncles in Italy. Oh how do I wanna see that! Maybe it just takes time and better money saving skills, but how do you balance living now and later? Or is that just not possible? But why can't it be? Why do I have to choose? I want to not have to worry about money, I just wanna go and not think of the reprocussions. I know what I want in my life and I just don't know how to get there.

I do not think that I have made any bad decisions in my life and I do not blame anyone for what is happening in my life. I have made the choice and all I can do is deal with the reprocussions of that choice and move on. Let's just hope that everything that has brought me to this point will take me to where I wanna go and who I wanna be; which to be honest, is still a FAR way off.