Busy Again

So the next couple of days are going to be PSYCHOOOOO!! Tomorrow is my 25th birthday which I am for the first time in awhile that I am actually excited for!! I am getting together with a friend at 5:45 and we are going to have some Starbucks and hang out!! Then they're coming over for some board games or something and just hang out!! It's going to be soo nice, and I am mostly happy that my hubby organized it!! I have always thought that people who plan their own birthday get togethers was always kinda cheesy, but that's just me!!! Then on Friday we are having lunch with my mom and dad and then having supper with another friend that evening, and then on Saturday is a surprise party for my second dad. WHEW!

I have been going through Yoga withdrawls lately, I want to get back full fledge into it. But, I am no where near in the shape I was in five years ago. Thankfully for muscle memory thought it won't take to long to get it back, but when you did something for a long time and you loved doing it and then when you go back into it again and you can't do the things you used to do, it's depressing!! I also want to go out and do a Yoga class with actual people, and socialize and actually have a teacher to fix my stances. I am not happy with the way my body currently looks, but the only thing a person can do is fix it instead of bitching about it right? I really need to watch the amount of junk that I eat too, but the intersting thing is though is that I don't eat a lot of it. Our new roommate keeps eating a lot of garbage and keeps wanting me to drink pop (which I really don't like to drink, and rarely drink) and I keep saying no or I don't like it. I eat a lot of fruits and veggies and well honestly a lot of salty things which I think is my biggest problem. So maybe I need to cut back on the amount of salt that I eat and maybe the pounds will come off with it. But then again, this is our culture is it not? You're not beautiful unless you are a certain weight, you look a certain way and you have no cellulite. Every woman has cellulite, I don't wear shorts because I have cellulite on the back on my thighs and I so self-concious about it. But in reality all woman have it, so why hide it? Because we're trying to be beautiful to those men who are shallow and only care about a piece of tail instead of the classy men who think that it's sexy that we don't give a shit what anyone else thinks of us? It's a catch 22, at least in my case I want to be good looking to everyone because I love that reinformance that I am beautiful and that someone at any given time is checking me out. What does this say about me?? That I am have alot of self-image issues, and I think by getting back into something that I do truly love and have a passion for and quite honestly I am damn good at. I hope to start tonight, and get back in tune with who I am and who I want to be, which is what Yoga gives me: My Inner Strength.