So, the past couple of days have been to say it simply.... Interesting.... I had a bit of nervous berakdown last night because of all the stress that I am under. My poor fiance held me as I cried my eyes out, which helped. Sometimes my body just breaks down and becomes overwhelmed that i just start out of nowhere, which is last night.
I have a huge huge huge huge huge fear of failor and not getting things that I want (like traveling, supporting my future family etc) and whenever we are short on money I feel like I am taking steps back on what my ultimate goal is.
Another thing I think I am stressed about is well the wedding that is looming on the horizon. Althought my mom is planning most of it (thank god) I think it still has a psychological impact on a person. I mean it's freaking marriage!!! I only plan on doing this once and I REALLY do not want a divorce, that's another fear I have as well. But a person can't plan for everything right? I've been with my fiance for over 6 years, that's a long ass time and you really get to know a person during this time.
Another thing that has kinda propped up outta nowhere is an overwhelming curiosity of my past life. I know that everyone doesn't believe in re-incarnation, or deja-vu's and I don't know if I do. All I know is that I have never had a deja-vu in my life and I feel like I need to know who I was. I don't know what caused this, but I feel like I need to know..... Is that weird or what???
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