Birthday

So my birthday is coming up soon (by soon I mean like 3 weeks) and I am anxious/excited about it. My hubsand and I have been together for over six years and he has never thrown me anything, ever. Normally this wouldn't bug me except for the creation of this blog was because of a stupid bitch, and he threw this stupid bitch a surprise part to make her feel better. Last year for my husbands 25th birthday I threw him a surprise birthday party too! Not to say hey I think you should do this for me, but as a nice thing to do because he has never had a birthday party before. My husband said that he wouldn't throw me one until I stopped expecting it, and honestly that's really not how I work. I don't want the big extravagent get together with everyone getting plastered at a bar, I just want my friends to say hey "Happy Birthday, wanna come over and chill?". Last year was horrible because I was so depressed because my husband didn't say Happy Birthday to me. I was so destraught and sad and I just wanted the day to be over, we didn't do anything we just had supper with my parents and went home. Happy Birthday to me, yay. I am trying to be hopeful for this year because well now I am his wife..... Maybe that might make a difference??? I just want my friends around having fun and playing board games. I don't want anything special, I just want the ones that I love around me. But why can't my husband do something for me, regardless if I expect it or not. I just want someone to throw me something because I don't think I should have to plan my own fucking birthday......