Friends

I love my friends, I really do. I would do anything for them and I would give my right arm to make sure that they know just how much I care about them. So nonetheless I get really pissed off when my friends spit in my face and say that they don't want me in their life anymore. Here let me give you some back story:

my fiance and I got into a huge fight (trust me there will be posts later on about this) and I went to my best friend who I considered more a brother to me than a friend. I went to him to vent about what was going on, his girlfriend and him came to pick me up and they took me out for supper and played some pool. My friend was a little quiet as the night progressed but I didn't think much of it because of the nuclear bomb that hit my life. A couple of days later he sent me an e-mail on facebook saying that he felt that the situation between my fiancee and I has taken a negative influence on my relationship and my work so I need to take a step back.

So now that you know the backstory you can kind of understand why I am kinda bitter towards my friends. I know I know, I shouldn't judge my friends because one is a fucking idiot. But it seems after that incident that all of my friends seem to be taking a step out of my life, and all I can think is what the fuck is wrong with me? Why all of a sudden am I to much for people to handle? It's not like all I do is complain about how bad my life is and how I got the bad side of life. Because it's not true, I have things very damn well! I own a house, and I have a career I own my own vehicle and I have four years of a college education. I am not a stupid person and I think that everything that is happening recently is from being under a lot of stress. I am getting married in June, I am on a board that is entirely voluntary and I am a supervisor of a major department in my library and my supervisor doesn't do jack shit.

Another thing that bugs me is when my friends say that they don't want to come over past a specific time because it screws up their schedule. Okay fine, I think 8:00 is a little stupid but okay, but to only see your friends on the weekend to me is fucking retarded. How can you find the time to fit in all of your socialization in one weekend. People are so strange am I overreacting?!?

As you are starting to realize why I would like to stay anonymous.



Am I being unreasonable here?